Orphans by Gabriel Furshong
Quetzaltenengo, Guatemala
At the river edge
choked with litter
children pointed and shrieked
ran away laughing
a cow had given birth
the placenta swung between her legs
dribbling blood over plastic water bottles
empty bags of chips
In the nursery
kids everywhere
tumbling over the couch
sitting on stairs
two more on the kitchen floor
with their eyes on Elena
who does one thing at a time
After dark
headlights slice the dusty road into pieces
smells of grilled meat
motor oil
men curse beneath a truck
an old woman
with a sack of oranges on her back
shuffles in the dirt
everyone as tired as the shepherd
asleep in his wheelbarrow
no calf in sight
Gabriel Furshong writes from Missoula, MT, where he works for the Montana Wilderness Association. His essays and reporting have appeared in High Country News, the Earth Island Journal and the Cobalt Review, among other publications. His poetry has been printed or is forthcoming in the anthology, “I Go to the Ruined Place,” (Lost Horse Press), the CutBank Literary Magazine and the Cossack Review.
spider up her thigh in the dimly lit room
held down, stared down
embers of the abyss snap around her
My father sexually abused me.
When I got married,
I hyphenated my name.
No one questioned it at the time.
But in the middle of my parents’ late divorce,
everyone wants to know about names.
Nietzsche warned us not to look
long into the abyss, or it will look long
into us.
It was finally
his home until
abruptly
his mind flashed
all the times he had entered a
boy
i was depressed,
and i wanted
to take a
walk;
you said you'd join me—
didn't mean i wanted
netflix and chill,
it happened before words came
to tell me how to feel about it
newly connected neurons torn apart
or perverted—
forever firing blanks into the microbiological air
As a child
The lessons taught
Can bring a pain never thought.
The lessons on trust
And heartache
Sear the soul.