POETRYIn the Still of the Crumbling Nightby Grant Tarbard
In the still of the crumbling night I creep
About pitch streets, about a flower's head,
Oh sigh to me nothing so I can sleep.
One more word and I'll crumple in a heap,
Comfort me with nothing more to be said,
In the still of the crumbling night I creep.
Disappearing with the melting snow's leap,
My limbs are stewed fish bones tied up with thread,
Oh sigh to me nothing so I can sleep.
Standing in the airing cupboard I weep,
Longing for a sigh I scratch until red,
In the still of the crumbling night I creep.
And what my hauntings sew so shall I reap,
All the houses in a row drawn with lead,
Oh sigh to me nothing so I can sleep.
Coated in the amber of a lamp's peep,
Chill street portraits, plain as death, I behead
In the still of the crumbling night I creep,
Oh sigh to me nothing so I can sleep.
Grant Tarbard is the former editor of The Screech Owl and co-founder of Resurgant Press. He has worked as a journalist, a contributor to magazines, a reviewer, an interviewer and a proof reader.
spider up her thigh in the dimly lit room
held down, stared down
embers of the abyss snap around her
My father sexually abused me.
When I got married,
I hyphenated my name.
No one questioned it at the time.
But in the middle of my parents’ late divorce,
everyone wants to know about names.
Nietzsche warned us not to look
long into the abyss, or it will look long
into us.
It was finally
his home until
abruptly
his mind flashed
all the times he had entered a
boy
i was depressed,
and i wanted
to take a
walk;
you said you'd join me—
didn't mean i wanted
netflix and chill,
it happened before words came
to tell me how to feel about it
newly connected neurons torn apart
or perverted—
forever firing blanks into the microbiological air
As a child
The lessons taught
Can bring a pain never thought.
The lessons on trust
And heartache
Sear the soul.