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DRUNK MONKEYS IS A Literary Magazine and Film Blog founded in 2011 featuring short stories, flash fiction, poetry, film articles, movie reviews, and more

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POETRY / If I Could See the Future, I Would Be Able to Save Us / Deema Bteibet

what would you say if you knew 
that 4 years from now  
i would get dressed 
with the intention of going 
to the local party venue; 
the one where i spilled mignonette sauce 
in the darkness of the poorly lit restaurant 

I was thinking about you  

i can tell he is still jealous of you 
but we can’t move our eyes from the wood paneled floors. 
the place was heavily decorated 
pink tulle hanging from the ceiling 
like shrouds. 

I can’t stop thinking 

about the bad taste in my mouth 
in the form of your handwriting. 
but i never left the house that day.  
i sat at the top of my staircase with trembling hands. 
and i know why we never got the timing right.  
i just couldn’t handle it.   

ii 

but what would you say if i told you i would be  
mourning alongside your weeping mother 
where your funeral is being held 
in the black dress i wore on our third date.  
and the last hours hurt 
even after you’re gone. 
my husband held my hand with both of his 
before we even got the news.  
pixie lights 
wrapped around the skin colored beams. 
the last words you left me with 
burn a hole in the back of my armoire. 
god knew that if we were still together,  

You would be the one person who ever understood. 

 

iii 

what would you say if you knew 
that 4 years from now i would be 
mourning alongside your weeping mother.  
i would get dressed 
with the intention of going 
to the local party venue  
where your funeral is being held; 
wearing the black dress that i wore on our third date  
the one i spilled mignonette sauce on 
in the darkness of the poorly lit restaurant 

I was thinking about you  

and your last hours 
as my husband holds my hand with both of his  
i can tell he is still jealous of you 
even after you’re gone. 
but we can’t move our eyes from the wood paneled floors. 
the place was heavily decorated 
before you even got in the car  
with pixie lights 
and pink tulle hanging from the ceiling, 
wrapped around the skin colored beams 
like shrouds. 

I can’t stop thinking 

about the last words you left me with 
in the form of your handwriting 
which leave a bad taste in my mouth 
and burn a hole in the back of my armoire 

You were the one person who ever understood. 

but i never left the house that day. 
instead, i sat at the top of my staircase with trembling hands 
and your tear-stained note buried in the pocket of my black dress.  
and i now know why we never got the timing right. 
god knew that if we were still together,  
i wouldn’t be able to handle this.  


Deema Bteibet is a Palestinian-American writer from Cleveland, Ohio. She graduated from Cleveland State University where she received a Creative Writing Scholarship for her nonfiction work and is currently working on getting her Masters in Literature in Indiana. A lot of her inspiration comes from Warsan Shire, Vladimir Nabokov, and F. Scott Fitzgerald.

ESSAY / American Cathedrals / Hayden Shoemaker

FICTION / Scars / Soidenet Gue

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